Breaking up is Hard to Do
August 15th, 2006
When I was 20 I met my best friend and my partner in life for the next 13 years. I worked hard to keep my partner happy…hours of devotion, no task was a burden, no request too big, no demand on my time was too unreasonable. In return my partner was loyal, encouraged me to push myself to be the best I could be and showered me with words of praise and gifts for my love, loyalty and time.
My partner wasn’t my boyfriend…it was my job. Until the age of 32, the relationship that enjoyed most of my time and energy was my career. I was one of those people who was always crazy busy…however all of it was work and none of it was pleasure. There was a time when Work was my pleasure…and then I realised that I filled my time being busy with Work to occupy all the spaces where I might have had time to examine other areas of my life.
Not long after I’d had this insight, Work and I just grew apart. We wanted different things. We needed to see other people.
Finally I plucked up the courage to end our relationship. I was going to start anew, do something that made my heart content…wasn’t sure what this would be but hoped that some hidden talent would surface which would allow me to do something else!
I told Work I wasn’t happy and that I thought it best if we ended our relationship. Work got upset and said we had too much good stuff to just let it all go. Feeling a little guilty [and irresponsible] I agreed to stay and give it another go on the condition that we give each other a bit more space. We agreed to see each other only 2 days a week.
Being with Work on a part-time basis was great. It allowed me to follow my heart and be somewhere that was more in line with my dreams - Dolphins & Angels. Inevitably though, letting something [or someone] go completely is necessary in order to grow in a new direction or allow something better to come in.
Today I am ending my relationship with Work [in the advertising industry] for good. I am very excited and I am looking forward feeling very free!!!
Hopefully Work and I will stay friends…
Bev x
P.S. I’m using bottle B79
That Love May Conquer All
July 25th, 2006
‘But man stripped of all props except that of his spirit is astounding not only in the depths he is capable of plumbing, but also the heights that he can scale.
The easy-going “featherweight” demonstrates a solid capacity for self-sacrifice and integrity.
The glaring light of adversity reveals all the rainbow hues of the human character’.
Except from Letters From Burma, Aung San Suu Kyi
Spellbound
July 25th, 2006
There’s nothing quite as painful as loving someone with all of your heart and not having that love returned.
On a rational, logical level, we know that the relationship can’t really be good for us, how can it be when the situation hurts more than it gives pleasure?! But that said, when we connect with our heart, we can feel intense feelings for this person - are we really meant to walk away?….shouldn’t we be following our hearts and not our heads?
I believe unrequited love is our guiding star to discover our inner child.
When are heart is captivated by someone else, we recognise our inner child in them. Their fears are our fears; the light they shine, is our inner light waiting to be shone.
Perhaps the frustration we feel towards the one who doesn’t return our love should really be gratitude for the introduction to our inner child…
I’ve just used Equilibrium bottles B92, B74 and B91.
Love
Bev
Recovering the Satellite
July 19th, 2006
Writing about my experience with Aura Soma somehow seems a good first blog entry!!
I first came across Aura Soma in New Zealand in September 2005.
I was living in the UK and was only back for a trip. My best friend had been for an Aura-Soma consultation and was so excited that she almost rang and made an appointment for me because I’d arrived back!!
I returned to the UK and used the bottle I had been recommended however, didn’t really seek out Aura-Soma further once I’d finished the bottle [number 68].
It turned out that the ensuing year was a particularly challenging one for me. It felt like I was being thrown ‘back to back’ life lessons and so all my energy was going into emotionally and mentally clearing and healing all that arose as a consequence. For the last few years I have had regular sessions of a variety of treatments such as cell memory removal, Chakra re-balancing, hypno-therapy reiki, massage etc.
These have been invaluable to me for helping to emotionally clear and heal a past which included a painful and traumatic childhood [and then a few essential big bumps along the way in the form of relationship breakups etc.!!]
No matter how much clearing and healing I did, there was one thing that I couldn’t seem to heal and that was there was a part of my spirit that seemed to have been dampened by the events of the past. The way I recognised this, was a feeling that there was a void within me that prevented me from really connecting to other people and my life in an ‘earthly way’… I was a ‘head in the clouds’ kind of person, constantly daydreaming and very idealist!! … it was always ‘nice and fluffy’ in my world, however the flip side, was that the knocks from the ‘real world’ seemed to knock me harder.
Increasingly, it felt like I was being forced to dig deeper and deeper to find this part of me who knew what I really wanted in life and would be able to create it but I just couldn’t seem to connect to that part, it felt like I was going around in circles….
Things began to shift a little and I wondered whether perhaps things were going to change however by then I had completely lost my faith and those moments of hope seemed fleeting.
Then one day I went to the Body, Mind and Soul exhibition at Kempton Park Racecourse. Simone had an exhibition there and when I saw her table and the beautiful twinkling bottles again I knew straightaway that I needed a reading.
This Aura Soma reading tuned out to be one of the most pivotal moments in my life. When Simone finished my reading I wanted to jump up and hug her. It was the kind of insight I had been longing for and from that reading I never looked back.
So I embarked on my journey to recover the satellite… that part of my spirit that was isolated through fear of abandonment, rejection, abuse and trauma and I used Aura Soma as my compass.
I also decided to do a foundation Aura Soma course and of course am fortunate to be working with Simone whose guidance and love has been such a blessing.
Love
Bev